The smile you gave as I
Loved your scarf and maybe
Already new you
I remember you for
The moment we merged
In the forest on
A picnic table entwined
As the pitch night enveloped
Us as we desperately tried
Not to succumb
To the inevitable
I remember you as the
One without judgment
Tears burning across your face
As you longed for a look
Of love and wanting for something
That came too soon
And I am certain
I loved you then without
A question or doubt
I remember your uncertain
But unstoppable hope
As we crashed our lives
Into each other's
But just as friends
Not too serious, laughing
In hopeless entanglement
Afraid of what we
So deeply felt and
How hard we fell in
I remember your voice
That too early morning
As you trembled
To ask that I accept your love
Without anger or pride
As though I had not already
Long before
I remember the night when
We gave ourselves the freedom
To be the love we had
So long denied out of
Fear of being wounded
Again
Finally feeling freedom
From our past lives
As the fear we had
Used to build walls to protect
Crumbled and we
Once again knew
The joy of being vulnerable
I remember the rain soaked day
And the sun swept the clouds
Away as God gave a blessing
On the most unusual of days
And we laughed and laughed and couldn't hold back any longer
I remember when you took
My hand upon your heart
Creating our beloved daughter
And the excited trepidation
Of birth on a day that one
Soul left in tragedy and
And a new life took its place
I remember your constant
Forgiveness and endless hope
That time and again pulled me
From the very edge into
Your arms as you lay
Your head against my heart
I will always remember that you
And always you
Are my one and only
My always and forever
My reason, my hope, my choice
To rage against the darkness
Of a world that ever more
Feels stripped of compassion
I will never forget that you
Saved me and continue to
Save me with a love that
Is impossible and
possible somehow
In its infinite capacity
I will always remember
From this moment back
to the day
I loved your scarf
That because of you
I have known the deepest
Love and joy
That no person is worthy of
And I can only hope
That the humble gift
Of my eternal gratitude
And the entirety of my soul
Is enough
For you to keep me
In your grace
As the angel who
Chose to love a fool
