Monday, December 10, 2012

National Ave - A Start

When I began what would become the opening of a thousand eyes I was already on the run. I was running from my parents mostly as they had seen fit to put me to the stone. I was running from my brothers in arms but they wanted me to be safe. Most of all I was running from the crazy danger disease I had contracted from the man in the moon. He would call out to me in a fury of controlled substances and mind bending animal dances. And yet I could say that as long as I can be sure of my memory all I wanted was the purity of chaos and numbed sleep. So why would I run from my demon that would seem to be my familiar? Well sometimes when you run from the sun you are falling right into a star. I fell into a pattern of running while under a red
dextromethorphan
hydro
bromide
planet
no, an orbit
pulled with
The Gravity is what Dr. Light would refer to it as. He would say we were all pulled by the great magnet into our little waltzes. So as I was crashing into my future not expecting to survive the fury I came upon Super D. It was he who came to me, to be more accurate, if one dares care for that sort of thing. My start can be traced farther back into infamy, but for the purpose of nothing I will start at the area of greatest possibility and most fantastic confusion. Super D showed up at my house without knowing full well who I was and how we had previously met. I had sold him LSD that he had said was the clowns make up even as I was flying my spaceship with this very fuel. In fact many had ridden that roller coaster but Super was always riding at least six to ten dragons so how he could tell there was no proof in the punch was beyond me. I will return to this later, as the most important, or should I say damning, thing to point out is that Super D came bearing gifts
                                                                                                                                 of syrup and
                                                                                                                    chaser, you see the
                                                                                                      tuss tastes like anger
                                                                                          and reason has a cost
                                                                           you slam then you chase
                                                                  with chocolate milk, and wait
                                                    hoping you avoid
                                       the violent vomit, which
would often improve the overall experience of mental cliff diving. Super D said he had never seen anyone chug a whole 8 oz of max strength without stopping. I ended up with a nice pink stain on the collar of the tuxedo shirt I loved to wear minus the tux. It was just my style to be right out there in the open sun for observation. Would it be wrong to say I felt pride? I have often said that Super D was one of several fathers I have known. He was my addiction professor. So he stood in awe of my need for the adventure and chugged his disease just like his son. we had done this right in the kitchen of the home of my parents. In a ceremony of goodbye I knew time would have it's way with me, and I would lose more than hours and days. We thus began
       our desert tusscapade
             the city, no the mind is
                   filled with strange creatures
                           when you get crooked, the eyes
                                    give you away, but not
                           as much as the slurred
                   pretentiousness dream
             sequences, one would
        foolishly believe
Bring one closer to the magnet. Super D offered me a place to not work and eat his food while he worked. This would never last more that 87 days. I had become a fly in everyone's ointment right around this clock. Mr S Bean was also living, well making a mess of things as it were anyway, in the same group of college party domes. Mr S Bean was providing many of the recreational journeys. He was a supply master who had been schooled by Super D, of course he would never concede that, but we all knew he was number two in the cut. Well I had been spending my hours skulking around his dungeon, but was fake home at the time, when Super D fathered me. He too had a father who was not
                                           made for the game of emotion lending
                                           you have got to be the best at
                                           every thing or you will die
                                           to me, words are bells ringing
in the rain. My skulking was becoming unwelcome. You see I had been banned from Turned Stone's house by his aging father master. I had been the source of Turned Stone's emanate downfall into corruption. Being outcast, exiled into the far away. Super D was always the man for sensing those cast aside like he. I was very near the the brink when he found me home alone. He ensured that I had found this cliff and set myself upon the wind. What I did not comprehend until now, is that I was ready for a fall
                                                                                          ready for my base
                                                                                     to be cut down, you
                                                                              see it must wreck itself
                                                                       to make it new
                                                               here in the quagmire
                                                        I found you, found
                                               you singing, no, writing
                                     painting too, and
                          as young as the milky
                way, born of star dust
           always turning
 Back to the 8 oz victory. From then on, for an entire sun season we found out about time. It was not long until Super D came to resent me with my procrastinators creed. After I moved into his home with Evil J, I was meant to Cinderella it up, or so I claimed. Super D and Evil J would supply the living space, and I would supply the stolen Tuss and the absolute need for substance. They would work and wake me in the middle of darkness to find some kind of danger. They would teach and I would leech. I did do some of the most interesting brush strokes I will never again see. That is something. I even found a new kind of mind for writing. One time while deep within the fields of a maddening bender shift I found out that I was in love with a word. Could I just let my hand loose? I
                                                     began with random
                                                              reason building lead-
                                                                        -ing to more than I
                                                                              could have ever known
                                                                                      how deep this would bore
                                                                                             into my skin, my eyes, my all
                                                                                                   encompassing rage, my sun, my
                                                                                                                       search found me forward along a path to now. There were those who came into Super D's room and they would ask. What is he doing? They would speak words at me, which are lost to one who rides the red sea snake anyway, but this time I was a sheet of paper. I swear to you I was a pen and a dagger. This was so different to me as I was so very involved with the Trifecta of collaboration in acrylic. But they knew then that I was not to be trusted, I was ready to slip. I passed out for several hours, or days. When I woke or was woken up there was such sadness and fear of the possibility that none of this happened. The pages were gone for nearly 5 years. You                      
                                                                                                                                        stole more than my words                                                                                                                         you made me
your own you
                     for this I can only love
                                           you as a son hates his father

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